Caution: I am going to share some things in this blog that are tough to write and will be hard to read…but the truth will set you free, and I know that this is part of my journey to being whole.
In my early twenties, I was incredibly stupid…as many in their early twenties are. Looking back, I could blame my addictions, promiscuity and poor choices on so many things. I’ve felt rejection since a very early age. I’ve felt abandonment and a lack of affection since I can remember. I would cling to whoever paid attention to me, and numb myself with whatever was closest.
When I met Matt, he was 20, and I was 23 with a three-year-old daughter. I had just left a tour singing backgrounds for Britney Spears because I was raped. Matt wouldn’t know that until years later and neither would anyone else. Matt and I both carried baggage including addictions to pornography and alcohol into an incredibly tumultuous relationship with each other.
A few months into our relationship, I found out I was pregnant...