I’ve been “in the pro-life movement” since I knew what abortion was. Sometime during Bush’s first term, I woke up every night for almost a year to pray that he would be lead of the Lord and establish justice for the unborn. Toward the end of his second term, when we were praying for different candidates we felt were supposed to be president, I experienced my first “loss.”
If you remember, Mike Huckabee was running, and as a man of strong Christian faith we were asking the Lord to give him favor. Down in the polls, Huckabee’s race came down to two swing states: Texas and Ohio. I was invited with a handful of others to fast and pray for favor while traveling to Texas to attend a rally. My hope was growing and growing throughout the fast, but it wasn’t long before we arrived back home to discover his loss. Texas and Ohio favored another candidate.
The Lord taught me an important lesson then. He reminded me of when God convicted David of sin before Nathan the prophet and declared that the son of his adultery would die. David laid down and pleaded with the Lord for his son’s life, taking no food or company for seven days. After the seven days his son died and David’s servants were afraid to tell him, but when David realized his son was dead he stood up, washed and anointed himself, changed his clothes and requested food.
His servants, rightfully confused, asked why he reacted this way. David said, “While the child was alive I fasted and wept for I said, ‘Who can tell whether the Lord will be gracious to me, that the child may live?’ But now he is dead; why should I fast? Can I bring him back again? I shall go to him, but he shall not return to me.”
There was rampant discouragement when we arrived home to the rest of our team. With heads hanging low, everyone asked, “What do we do now?”
The room was silent and I spoke up, “We get up, we wash ourselves off, anoint ourselves, and feast again on the goodness of the Lord. He has not changed, even though the situation has.”
This promise has held me for a long time. After that point, we as a nation compromised on a candidate who did not have a strong stance for life, and we lost the election to the most pro-choice president in United States history.
Can I be honest? It’s all just been kind of downhill from there.
There were small victories, and large victories, but even larger setbacks; I’ve had to fight discouragement every step of the way. My entire adult life in ministry has been spent fighting what seemed like a losing battle. Until this year.
God has had Bound4LIFE and JHOP DC in a divine timeline all throughout this year, and it’s been particularly miraculous for me to watch.
One day in an otherwise normal staff meeting, Matt Lockett, director of JHOP DC and Bound4LIFE started sharing with us what the Lord had been speaking to him. He asked, “Could it be that the Lord has given a Divine Deadline for abortion?”
There was a light in his eyes and a dream in his heart, but in all of my positive responses I had no certainty. Although I believed in the goodness of God, I was used to living on a faith that didn’t require or even expect proof. I can see now that it was hardly faith at all. I was too afraid to hope. Against my will, hope began to grow.
This is part one of a series. Stay tuned for parts 2 and 3.